Felt it was my job to hold every heart in my hands like responsibilities so I cradled you….
until our tears became waves of passion too deep to carry in a bowl
so they filled up our futures like child play
did we let deception play its numbers on our skin?
did we let it gamble with our bones…..
did naiveté captivate our common sense…..
did we know that our mission had a reason too deep to find within the contours of our childlike smiles?
Have you ever felt guilty trying to console someone who has lost a loved one even though it’s not your fault? Like, why do we say we’re sorry in the first place? What have we ourselves done? We apologize because we’re sorry for their sadness, and also because somehow, their loss has humbled us:
“It is apparent, that death, it’s sting… produces a humility powerful enough to find itself a home even inside the heart of the one who holds the cup of “I’m sorry’s”
hoping our voice is somehow gloomy enough to produce the kind of sympathy that peels back the brick that found itself a place inside the gut of the bereaved.”
Okay. I admit it. I am not as faithful as I should be. I am cheating on my other blog.
Oh, c’mon, don’t look at me like that; we have all been there.
But, dear blog, if you’re listening, I didn’t mean to hurt you; I just can’t stop thinking about ThePBSBlog.
Plus, you don’t entice me to your dashboard the way you used to. Let’s face it your updates are so in-between we never see each other. And then there’s ThePBSblog…with its amazing followers, inspiring quotes and articles, beautiful poetry, and simple design.
We are up all night drafting potential blog posts together, and before I know it, I am in over my head.
It took a moment before I realized I was seeing PBS on the side. I’m sorry ahouseofpoetry if you’re not getting enough attention. If it is worth anything, I still like you and all. It’s just that what PBS and I have together is, well, a commitment.
And I know this is gonna sound kinda freaky, but I really don’t mind seeing you both. If I have cake, am I not supposed to eat it too?